Hold on to what you believe

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IMG_2023Stressitasot ja vitutuskäyrät hipoo välillä pilviä, univelka painaa taakkana selässä, aika loppuu kesken ja minä haluaisin vain hetken itselleni. Etsin jatkuvasti onnellisuutta ja hyviä asioita kaiken tämän pimeyden keskeltä. Toisinaan onnistun, toisinaan en.
Tänään kuitenkin oli kertakaikkiaan onnistunut päivä; en myöhästynyt yhdestäkään bussista, töissä oli kerrankin aikaa kaikkeen, koulussa panostin päivän ainoalla kurssilla, silmälasit löysivät tiensä kotiin, ostin äidille pienen synttärilahjan ja illalla söin maailman parasta lohisalaattia. Tykkään myös hurjasti siitä faktasta että ehdin kuvata nämä pari kuvaa ja postata viimein!

Elämä on tällä hetkellä ihan rehellisesti todella rankkaa, välillä sitä vaan toivois pientä hengähdystaukoa kaikesta ja sen lisäksi syliä johon vois iltojen pimetessä käpertyä.
Siispä odotan jo hieman kevättä, jolloin voin vihdoin huokaista helpotuksesta ja todeta selvinneeni tästäkin lukuvuodesta. Lisäksi tiedän kiittäväni itseäni vielä vuosienkin päästä kaikesta tästä taistelemisesta, sillä niinhän se menee että lopussa kiitos seisoo :-)


Favourite quotes

"Knowing yourself and coming to trust your feelings and your intuition will open up your life to greater possibilities and keep you moving toward your goals. One thing I have learned is that I should trust my "gut" instincts. Ultimately, only we know what is best for us." 
- Miranda Kerr

"When you are washing the dishes, washing the dishes must be the most important thing in your life. Just as when you are drinking tea, drinking tea must be the most important thing in your life. Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the whole world revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future. Live the actual moment. Only this actual moment is life."
"Your life is not an episode of Skins. Things will never look quite as good as they do in a faded, sun-drenched Polaroid; your days are not an editorial from Lula. Your life is not a Sofia Coppola movie, or a Chuck Palahniuk novel, or a Charles Bukowski poem. Grace Coddington isn’t your creative director. Bon Iver and Joy Division don’t play softly in the background at appropriate moments. Your hysterical teenage diary isn’t a work of art. Your room probably isn’t Selby material. Your life isn’t a Tumblr screencap. Every word that comes out of your mouth will not be beautiful and poignant, infinitely quotable. Your pain will not be pretty. Crying till you vomit is always shit. You cannot romanticize hurt. Or sadness. Or loneliness. You will have homework, and hangovers and bad hair days. The train being late won’t lead to any fateful encounters, it will make you late. Sometimes your work will suck. Sometimes you will suck. Far too often, everything will suck - and not in a Wes Anderson kind of way. And there is no divine consolation - only the knowledge that we will hopefully experience the full spectrum - and that sometimes, just sometimes, life will feel like a Coppola film."

"But remember that you have to move on, somehow. You just pick your head up and stare something beautiful like the sky or the ocean, and you move the hell on" 
- James Patterson 

"Twenty years from now you'll be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore! Dream! Discover!" 
- Mark Twain
"Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy. Maybe it's this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to states of bliss, the more confused we get - to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were. Until it eventually hits us, it's been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.
- Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy)

"All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost; the old that is strong does not wither, deep roots are not reached by the frost." 
- J.R.R  Tolkien

"I firmly believe in small gestures: pay for their coffee, hold the door for strangers, over tip, smile or try to be kind even when you don’t feel like it, pay compliments, chase the kid’s runaway ball down the sidewalk and throw it back to him, try to be larger than you are— particularly when it’s difficult. People do notice, people appreciate. I appreciate it when it’s done to (for) me. Small gestures can be an effort, or actually go against our grain (“I’m not a big one for paying compliments…”), but the irony is that almost every time you make them, you feel better about yourself. For a moment life suddenly feels lighter, a bit more Gene Kelly dancing in the rain." 
- Jonathan Carroll

(Inspiksen lähteenä edellisen postauksen lisäksi: ihanan ida-emilian postaus ja tietenkin tumblr & weheartit.)